It's almost that time of the year again. You know, December things such as christmas, rainy days, winter season clothings, and final exam. Yes. I'm saying final exam.
My final exam will take time next week, I don't really know the date but it will start next fucking week. There is one subject that is obviously a curse for me. Oh, okay, it's not a curse but I just hate that subject, a lot. I hate physycs since I was in junior high school, I never liked it because it needs logical thinking and also the numbers are "ugly and complicated as fuck".
The subject is... *drum rolls* Mid-raise structure building.
You know you're fucked up when the lecturer is actually smart but can't give you a clear explanation about the subject, and more screwed when there is a rumour if the lecturer hates anything related to bimbingan belajar. Wanna be more and mooooore fucked up? Being a clueless yet lazy person. I find myself as a combination of those three, so, you know what I mean, right?
Until this day, I still don't have any idea about why should we learn structure and learning physycs when later in real life I'm not even going to use all of those complicated formulas. And the longer I'm studying architecture, the feeling about "salah jurusan" is getting bigger. But I don't want to easily give up, although I fucked up almost everything this semester, started with my designing studio, this hellish structure thing, and stuffs and stuffs. The only subject I won't ever complain is just Indonesian Architecture because it's always fun tl hear theories about things and examples.
In the end, all I wanna do is sticking up to this major course (not curse, even sometime it feels like a curse), because I can't imagine another year and money is wasted because I failed. It would be a hard work for my father if I can't make it.
I just wish everything is gonna be alright, starts from the exam until my designing studio. It's okay to get C+ or C, as long as when I'm entering world of working adults, I can draw tattoos and people pays me for that.
Last, good luck for everyone who's on final exam!!
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