After 5 months without any water dropped from the sky, I feel so happy that last night I can hear the sound of rain. Ah, I feel relieved when I hear that sound because I already missed it like crazy. I don't really like summer since the sun is always burns my skin and the temperature in Surabaya is pretty hot. Surabaya citizen said it is like a living hell since it's sooooooo hot.
But, I'm not going to talk about how the sun hates Surabaya a lot (because he decides he will punish us for 5 months after rainy season by stand-by on the top of our heads and burn this city).
I'm going to talk about the feelings I always get in this kind of season.
On the top of all, I feel gloomy. As I write this post, I just realise that everytime the rainy season is on or everytime the season is almost over, my heart is always broken. No, it is not a fucking coincidence. I don't understand how can it happened? Like today, after the rain last night, a guy sent me a text saying that he will forget me. I'm all like, okay, because before he replied I said that we should move on and stay friends instead of something more than friends. We've developped our feelings but some problems just makes me slowly lose the feeling I used to have. Oh, you know that feel, right? Maybe we're not even boy and girlfriend since we never met in real life before, but, we all know that feel when we find someone who understand us but we know we should keep thinking about how things can be explained logically and hard times making the right decisions. That's why I keep turning down his "offer" for me because I need to walk on real life. And I think it's a lie if we both said that there's no broken heart or sad feeling.
Second, I think I'm probably a masochist. A sad-feeling-masochist, not the sexual-acts-masochist. I'm not into BDSM stuffs because how the fuck can you enjoy being tortured while having sex? ._. Wait, back to the main topic: I'm a sad-feeling-masochist. Actually the rain is the main cause of it. Whenever I cry I always wish that I'm just another cold hearted person in appearance. I always wish I can never cry anymore because all my feelings are gone. But in the end, I always back to reality: I'm only human, and if I have no feelings towards anything anymore, it means I can never make friends again, I can never know what happiness feels like. Believe me, you'll going to hear me rant about things more in rainy days instead of summer. For me, the rain is a friend to help me release my stress, yet he can't really wash all my tears away, but still, he calms me down, while the summer is a friend to help me gain my cheerful personality.
And the best thing about rainy season is... I can replay those old, memorable songs I always liked and have a nostalgic feelings. Also, I can keep play favourite songs without getting too bored of it. As I said earlier, I'm a sad-feeling-masochist, so by playing those songs, I can enjoy those feeling and choked on my tears. Uh. Also new songs that fits my music taste. Yes. I remember listening to Pierce The Veil for the first time, the song I heard was The Boy Who Could Fly, and it was rainy season. You know, I felt so happy because it was new for me, and when I heard the lyrics, the rainy day became a perfect day for me.
Well, that's just my story right now, about how I feel about rainy days/season. Personally, I'd like to call this season as gloomy season because the weather, the smell, and everything about this season always gets me right in my heart.
And I'd like to recommend songs by Ghost Town which is really good to hear in this season (or any season). I'll say it by the albums c:
1. Party In The Graveyard (I would say that Monster, Off With Her Head, I'm Wasted, Voodoo, and Dreamer are pretty heartbreaking in this album)
2. The After Party (not a gloomy album but hey, I'm Weird, Under Wraps, Black Moon, and I'm A Disaster are pretty good)
3. Unplugged (if you don't like the original version, then here's the acoustic version which is as good as the originals).
So, let me ask you a question: how do you feel every and what's your favourite song in rainy season? ^^
But, I'm not going to talk about how the sun hates Surabaya a lot (because he decides he will punish us for 5 months after rainy season by stand-by on the top of our heads and burn this city).
I'm going to talk about the feelings I always get in this kind of season.
On the top of all, I feel gloomy. As I write this post, I just realise that everytime the rainy season is on or everytime the season is almost over, my heart is always broken. No, it is not a fucking coincidence. I don't understand how can it happened? Like today, after the rain last night, a guy sent me a text saying that he will forget me. I'm all like, okay, because before he replied I said that we should move on and stay friends instead of something more than friends. We've developped our feelings but some problems just makes me slowly lose the feeling I used to have. Oh, you know that feel, right? Maybe we're not even boy and girlfriend since we never met in real life before, but, we all know that feel when we find someone who understand us but we know we should keep thinking about how things can be explained logically and hard times making the right decisions. That's why I keep turning down his "offer" for me because I need to walk on real life. And I think it's a lie if we both said that there's no broken heart or sad feeling.
Second, I think I'm probably a masochist. A sad-feeling-masochist, not the sexual-acts-masochist. I'm not into BDSM stuffs because how the fuck can you enjoy being tortured while having sex? ._. Wait, back to the main topic: I'm a sad-feeling-masochist. Actually the rain is the main cause of it. Whenever I cry I always wish that I'm just another cold hearted person in appearance. I always wish I can never cry anymore because all my feelings are gone. But in the end, I always back to reality: I'm only human, and if I have no feelings towards anything anymore, it means I can never make friends again, I can never know what happiness feels like. Believe me, you'll going to hear me rant about things more in rainy days instead of summer. For me, the rain is a friend to help me release my stress, yet he can't really wash all my tears away, but still, he calms me down, while the summer is a friend to help me gain my cheerful personality.
And the best thing about rainy season is... I can replay those old, memorable songs I always liked and have a nostalgic feelings. Also, I can keep play favourite songs without getting too bored of it. As I said earlier, I'm a sad-feeling-masochist, so by playing those songs, I can enjoy those feeling and choked on my tears. Uh. Also new songs that fits my music taste. Yes. I remember listening to Pierce The Veil for the first time, the song I heard was The Boy Who Could Fly, and it was rainy season. You know, I felt so happy because it was new for me, and when I heard the lyrics, the rainy day became a perfect day for me.
Well, that's just my story right now, about how I feel about rainy days/season. Personally, I'd like to call this season as gloomy season because the weather, the smell, and everything about this season always gets me right in my heart.
And I'd like to recommend songs by Ghost Town which is really good to hear in this season (or any season). I'll say it by the albums c:
1. Party In The Graveyard (I would say that Monster, Off With Her Head, I'm Wasted, Voodoo, and Dreamer are pretty heartbreaking in this album)
2. The After Party (not a gloomy album but hey, I'm Weird, Under Wraps, Black Moon, and I'm A Disaster are pretty good)
3. Unplugged (if you don't like the original version, then here's the acoustic version which is as good as the originals).
So, let me ask you a question: how do you feel every and what's your favourite song in rainy season? ^^
