A Little Bit More

Wow it's been a long time I didn't write since last June. I guess I was too busy with things and kinda lose the ideas to write?

By the way, November is almost end, and, well, in 2 days we'll be in December which means there will be Christmas and it will be raining much more than November. November rain is just the beginning, guys. And no, that wasn't a preference to Guns N' Roses.

The end of November also means that I'll have this upcoming final evaluation on my architecture design in school. This is suck, but I really need to do my best (and I'm trying not to have any fucking breakdowns in between) so I can pass this one. I don't want to do it again next year because, fuck this shit.
(note: if you're an architecture lecturer of mine, please don't mine the swearing words, it was just how I feel right now about the upcoming evaluation ._. )(I bet you swear this much too when you were in your uni days, especially when it's near evaluation hehe).

Um, I guess that's all I wanna talk about  this time. I really need to go back doing the fucking homework :p

Bye, see you next post, dearie!

The Lost Kids: Malang-Batu, Day 1 (Photos)

And as I promised you in my last post, I will serve you some cool and silly photos on our first day in Malang. Here you go!

Booty booty booty booty!

Nothing's gonna change my love for susu kotak.

Don't eat me! I'm full of flesh but I'm not tasty.

Mbak-mbak Kuriya dan Sepatu Terbang will be a good title for Indonesian FTV, I guess?

Spoiler alert! Spiderman Re-make cast. Who will be the next Mary-Jane (or Gwen)? You decide!

Kefas tried to kiss that ninja.

Yes, Yoshe, you almost got it.

Me trying to "kiss" this ninja statue and end up looking into his eyes like I'm ready to torture him to death for any secret information because I am so short ._.

A new water bender is here.
Ps: that whale is like 'meh whatever'

If only this thing is real. WHY CAN'T THIS BE REAL?!

I AM LITERALLY TOO SHORT FOR ANYTHING AND IT MAKES ME MAD LIKE WHY CAN'T I GOT SOME COOL PHOTOS WITH THIS PAIR OF WINGS?

Almost going home, but we need to take a good group shoot so, here we are, posing in front of the mini Carousel, thanks to a kind stranger!

Random Rants About Family

So, we all know that Lunar New Year or what Indonesian people said is Chinese New Year is a time of the year when a big family are gathering together, doing stuffs and talking, and so on. Also, the most common things that happened is giving angbao (or hongbao) to children and young people who are still single.

For an instant information, I am a mixed blood, my ancestors from dad's side are Chinese (which is probably the reason why my dad's family's eyes are quite small lol) and my mom's side is Javanese. I should be at least pretty because they said mixed babies are the cutest but why am I not?

Well, what I want to say is, even though I don't like, and by I don't like I mean I hate being a Chinese descendant, but I do want to have a family gathering like my friends do. I honestly envy them so much. For me, it feels soooo unfair. My friends kept getting those fucking red packages every fucking Chinese New Year, and the most important of all is that family gathering thingy that I my family never had again since I was in junior high. Or maybe since I was in my 5th grade. Or whatever time is that, I never got it anymore.

*speaks to self*
Talking about Chinese New Year, it is also about family gathering, right? And here we go: these people will read about me ranting about things (un)related to Chinese New Year things.

Oh wait, it is actually related because I will tell you this about my family. This doesn't mean that I can't keep my mouth shut but it is because I only need a place to rant.

Somehow, there is some embarassment in myself everytime I see my friend uploading their Chinese New Year event with their family. I feel embarassed because why can't my family having some gathering like this? I guess they are busy with their shits they forgot that their family is not only them with their sons or daughters but also bigger part of the family. The only time my family can really meet is when there are a birthday party or someone's wedding. BUT STILL, NOWADAYS, IT IS NOT ALWAYS LENGKAP. I am in rage now. Oh god, I am really angry and sad at the same time.

More sad because I know there will be rants from kids who said "angpaoku cuma dapet sekian" while that sekian means Rp 300.000-500.000,00. Hey kids, that's so unfortunate of you that you only got those.

About family itself, I grow up believing that the family from dad's side will always be okay and I used to have this expectation. Until one day, I grew up and realised that I was so stupid for believing things like that. I even believe that sometimes you can't and you know you don't trust one side of your own family. My trust for them is fading away from year to year. It has big effect on my relationship with them. I used to be okay and I used to be a friendly-to-family kind of person, and now I am not that kind of person anymore. It's all because I rarely meet them. I am closer to my mom's side for sure.

If you are my family and reading this, please know that:
1. I don't like some of you, if I feel that you are okay, then you should be proud of yourself for making this little whiny bitch feel fond of you (even if it's not really but at least you know I don't hate you).
2. Even though I don't like most of you, but you are my family and since I am stuck here with you please make a regular family gathering because you already know why.
3. If you understand this but you don't give any explanation of why we still don't have any family gathering things, you are an asshole.
4. If you already make one and it's not complete, well, then, please usahain lah ya, masa ga mau ketemu keluarga sendiri? Duh!
5. I really like you guys I probably will say fuck you with a smiley face (or is it better with a  smirk or no expression instead of some plain smile?) to any of those who I don't really like :)

Last, I'm not sorry for saying a lot of sarcasm to you. I'm in the mood for it. Don't need to feel bad for me, feel bad for you, okay.

Happy Chinese/Lunar New Year!

Deathly Year

For me, 2014 is the year of death. Maybe it's not really like that, but I heard at least 4 death news and 2 missing plane news in a year. Oh okay, maybe not really a year but at least this year, that's what I know. But, you know, from suicide, illness, missing planes, you name it.

*sigh*

The hardest news to hear are the first death and the last missing plane. The first death was a suicide of a boy who were attending the same university as me. I know some things about him, even I don't know him personally, but I just can't stand suicide. Suicide is selfish, because you don't even think about how it will affect people who loves you. You never think about how it will leave any scars in another people's heart. And it's not worth to do. When you regret the choice, it is too fucking late to go back. You can't go back to life, you are not a fucking cat with 9 lives. We only live once.

And then this missing plane news. I don't want to be naive, most of them won't be safe. I knew and I had this bad feeling since the missing AirAsia news popped up on tv and any medias. It's quite weird, I didn't know what's this weird feeling until SAR team confirmed that they found the bodies and plane pieces floating on the sea. I almost cry right when I see the news. It is a heartbreaking news. Most of them are acquintances of my friends and, yeah, just like that, I can't explain it since it's a sensitive yet hard to explain.

I will say that I am sorry and I'm giving my deepest condolences to all these people, especially these people's families who lost their loved ones. It's really hard to lose them, I know.

May the souls find their way home, safe and sound.

Don't You Ever Dare It

Yesterday, I scrolled down through Facebook and I found this one picture that sums up every body's life: the never ending question asked by ignorant people including your whole family members (including your uncles, aunts, cousins, married cousins, and so on). The picture below is in Indonesian so I'll translate it to you.

Admit it, these are the most hated questions, either you're single or not.

1. Kapan kawin? = When will you get married?
2. Kapan punya anak? = Do you plan to have child soon?
3. Kasih ASI atau sufor/susu formula? = Which milk you give to your baby? Breast milk of formulated milk?
4. Kapan punya adek lagi? = Do you have a plan to get pregnant and having another child?
5. Ibu RT? Ga sayang sama gelar masternya? = A housewife? Don't you feel bad about your master degree?
6. Udah kerja sekarang? Ga kasian ninggalin anak-anak di rumah? = So you're working now? How about your kids at home?
7. Kapan mantu? = When will your children get married?

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So, yeah, I can relate to those kind of questions. I'm not married, not yet, but as a youngster, I get a lot of people questioning do I already have a boyfriend or not. And those questions always been asked by my family. Yes, almost all family members I know since a I was a kid always asking me those questions.

Honestly, I feel so fucking sick about those questions. I am so naive if I say those questions are okay and not violate my privacy. Don't they know that it's actually violate my privacy? And, why the fuck do you want to know who's my love interest is. No, fellas, you will never know them and you will never really care about their background. Oh wait, you only care about his race and religion, are you? Then, don't you have something that is far more important than asking annoying questions like that?

If you let me be honest, I can brag about having a lovely boyfriend and talking shit about being in a relationship. But you better feel bad if it's a lie, a lie about having a lovely boyfriend and blahblahblah. Keep in mind that I don't care about your opinions and how you try to be a "part in my life by doing helpless things".

I may sound like a rude bitch here, but I want to make it clear that once you guys asking me about love-thingy, you'll get a very special treatment from me - the silent treatment. My cousin, she passed the phase, said that it really works. You don't want me to ignore you, don't you? If so, you know what to do. *insert smiley face here*

Ps: if you are a family member of mine and we don't meet so often, don't you ever dare to ask me questions like that and let me live my fucking life.

Hari Terakhir Sekolah?

H-3!!
Iya, dengan ini saya umumkan bahwa 3 hari lagi kami para pejuang berseragam putih abu-abu bakal menyelesaikan tugas terakhir kami di sekolah. Yoi, UNAS coy. Emang sih, awal-awal bulan ini sempet merasa sangat takut dan stress, tertekan banget dengan 4 huruf kapital penuh makna ini. Sampe sempet bikin singkatan UNAS jadi Ujian Nasional Amat Scumbag. Sekarang udah beda, jadi Ujian Nasional Amat Sukses. Amin deh aminn!!

By the way, hari ini hari ini terakhir aku dan temen-temen seangkatan sekolah. Bukan dalam arti harafiah sih, tapi dalam arti ini hari terakhir kami ngikutin pelajaran di sekolah. Hari Sabtu besok tetep masuk, tapi cuma persekutuan doa sama pembagian kartu peserta unas. Sementara itu hari Senin sampe Kamis, ke sekolah untuk ngikutin ujiannya.

Well, this last day of school, it should be used for studying. But much of us didn't. Bukannya serius belajar sih, tapi masing-masing anak kelas 12 keliling dari satu kelas ke kelas lain, buat sungkem sama guru-guru. Kita pengen minta restu sama mereka yang udah berjasa nganterin kita ke gerbang kelulusan *ceileh bahasanya*. Seru sih bisa keliling rame-rame, apalagi kelasku kelilingnya pas barengan sama salah satu kelas dari sektor IPS. Hahaha nggak karuan deh pokoknya. Di tiap kelas yang kami masukin, bayangin deh, normalnya satu kelas itu untuk 35-40 orang siswa. Tapi dengan kehadiran kami yang berjuang buat sungkem sama guru, alhasil kelasnya jadi bermuatan lebih dan....... jadi sesek, puanas, manusia dimana-mana. Hehehhe. Semacam arus kemacetan lalu lintas gitu deh.

Gimana pun serunya, tapi tetep satu hal yang bikin sedih. Kenangannya itu lho. Dan.. gokilnya. I think I have a good time with them, a really great good time! :') Bisa ketawa sepuasnya, guyon ga abis-abisnya. Dan kita selalu punya temen yang bener-bener ngasih kita support. Dan apapun perbedaan kita, kita juga masih bisa nerima mereka apa adanya. Katanya juga, ini yang ga bakal ditemuin di kancah perkuliahan, dengan orang-orang baru yang latar belakangnya udah jelas bakal beda, cerita berbeda, dan masih banyak hal lainnya yang aku sendiri belum tau seluk beluknya.

But, whatever will be, will be. May God be with me, you, and us who will face the national exam. Meskipun aku termasuk penentang garis keras untuk urusan ujian nasional, tapi aku kan posisinya sebagai warga sangat biasa aja (karena warga biasa udah terlalu mainstream), aku bukan pejabat yang berpemikiran cetek tentang kurikulum baru di bidang pendidikan ataupun pejabat berkelakuan hina dan kotor serta yeyek. Eh kok jadi nyindir ya? Haha what-e-ver. I'm gonna go through this exam and I'll pass this.

God bless all the 12th graders, semua yang di Indonesia! Good luck!!

Sedikit Kurang Kerjaan

Yak, sesuai judul nih, kapan hari saat aku nulis blog ini yang terjadi adalah aku duduk-duduk di McD rungkut bareng rexy sama sungging. Harusnya sih ada immanueel bimo, tapi dasar apes, bannya gembos jadi repot nyari tukang tambal ban deh.

Aslinya kita ke McD rungkut ini buat kerja tugas laporan ujian praktek agama. Tapi namanya sekelompok sama anak-anak aneh jadinya isinya malah ngowoh-ngowoh koplo gitu deh hohoho. Rexy sibuk nge-line, sungging autis ke laptopnya, aku nulis blog ini, dan.... immanuel bimo dateng trus makan .__. okee mungking ini belum saatnya kerja.

Dan akhirnya setelah beberapa saat, kita mulai kerja. Pas rexy ngetik, gak tau kenapa eh matanya lebih fokus ke bb mulu. Iya deh yang lagi kasmaran (.___.) Bagian immanuel bimo yang ngetik, isinya guyoooon aja. Untung ada sungging yang bisa mbantuin mikir dan ngetiknya nggenh. Muucih qaqa chunggingz! Haha

Akhirnya jam stengah 10, smua urusan beres seberes-beresnya beres. Bimo asik mainin laptopnya sungging sementara yang punya lagi terpuruk. Rexy bbm-an sendiri. Oho!!!

Ah udah ah daripada postingan ini semakin nggak karuan mending....

Foto-foto.
Aaaaa sebagai anak gaul aku akan merasa gagal kalo nggak berhasil foto #harapdiabaikan

Niat awalnya sih kerja tugas...

Kapan kerjanya kalo foto terus-_-

engggg....

Welcoming the 2013

Sebelumnya aku pengen ngucapin merry christmas and happy new year 2013 :D yah telat-telat dikit gak apa lah, yang penting niat ngucapinnya :p hehehe.

Wuah 2012 udah berakhir kawan, 2013 juga udah menghadang. Sementara itu libur gak kemana-mana dan bentar lagi bakal disibukkan sama kegiatan sekolah menjelang unas, ujian akhir sekolah, ujian praktek, dll. Oke, harusnya libur kalo nganggur di rumah gini masih nyempetin waktu untuk belajar, tapi balik lagi ke motto-ku : "libur ya libur, jangan dipake belajar", karena kalo belajar sama aja, kita nggak bakal menikmati waktu luang yang tersedia, trus jadinya malah tambah stress. Aaaaaaa tidaaaaak *malah stress sendiri*

Untuk tahun ini, kalo ditanya resolusi aku juga nggak bakal minta yang muluk-muluk :

1. Lulus sekolah & lulus dari ujian-ujian yang ada, mulai ujian praktek sampe Ujian Nasional Amat Sinting #ifyouknowwhatImean

2. Jadi lebih rajin & alim, mengingat udah mau lulus

3. Menjalani hidup dengan lebih bersyukur. Entah kenapa kalo aku nggak sreg sama sesuatu aku susah bersyukur. Jadi, aku emang harus lebih banyak belajar bersyukur.

4. Melepas status single alias mblo biar gak jadi obat nyamuk & biar gak galauan -____- #abaikan #jangandibaca

5. Rajin nabung biar bisa beli mini cooper #ehek #ngayal #inijugajangandibaca

6. Seabrek keinginan lain yang belum terpenuhi :p

Simpel kan? Hahaha oke, emag sih beberapa cuma ngayal, tapi gak apa deh, ngayal juga gak bayar kok :p hahahaha

Yeah yeah yeah, 2012 was such a beautiful memories, but we have to keep moving on. So, let's face the 2013. Wish it would be more nice & be more wonderful!